I throw myself into my work. It`s exhausting. It`s time-consuming. I feel guilty for not being with my kids all the time, But then when I`m home with my children and devoting my life to my kids, in the back of my mind I`m wondering whether I`ll ever get employed again. So there`s a constant battle of doing what fuels me and what I do best. And also, being there for my kids.